Collision with the infinite. by: Suzanne Segal External-identifier: urn:acs6: collisionwithinf00sega:epubdb3deac-b0e Collision With the Infinite by Suzanne Segal, , Blue Dove Press edition, in English - 2nd ed. By Suzanne Segal. IT WAS IN THE SPRINGTIME that it happened. I was returning home to my apartment on the Left Bank after attending a.
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Suzanne Segal. *Download PDF | ePub | DOC | audiobook | ebooks. The autobiography is the extraordinary story of how a young Jewish woman from the . Suzanne Segal. All rights reserved. aralgocunes.ga The Realization of Suzanne Segal. ~ An excerpt from the book Collision with the Infinite. Suzanne Segal (–) was a writer and teacher about spiritual enlightenment, known for her sudden experience of Self-Realization which she wrote about in her book Collision With the Infinite: A Life Beyond the Personal Self. .. Print/export. Create a book · Download as PDF · Printable version.
I even went to graduate school and got a Ph. During this time, I consulted a lot of psychotherapists because it seemed like something I needed to be cured of.
Every single one of these therapists considered this to be a problem. And they all had a diagnosis for it.
They couldn't quite understand how it could be that there was such great functioning occurring, but they took the fact that there was a lot of fear to be a sign that this was a problem.
Sex serves no personal desire and has no deeper meaning that makes it anything but what it is at the moment. Like all other functions, the sexual function is engaged when the vastness deems obvious, for a mysterious, non-personal purpose.
When lovemaking occurs, there is no one making love to no one.
How could this possibly be comprehensible to the mind? It was time to start investigating other possible descriptions of what this was.
It was time to investigate it with people who maybe knew more about it than Western psychotherapists.
I started reading spiritual books. Fear had tricked the mind into taking its presence to mean something it did not.
Fear was present, yes, but that was all it was! The presence of fear in no way invalidated the experience that no personal self existed.
It meant only that fear was present. Everything occurs simultaneously--form and emptiness, pain and enlightenment, fear and awakening. Fear's grip broke, and joy arose at once. For years there had been no-self at all, yet here on this road , everything was myself, and I was driving through me to arrive where I already was.
In essence, I was going nowhere because I was everywhere already. The infinite emptiness I knew myself to be was now apparent as the infinite substance of everything I saw. In early X-rays revealed a brain tumor. She had surgery and died on 1 April , age Her book is titled Collision with the Infinite. Post script.
The skeptic might argue that her disease provides evidence for the materialist position-- that she merely hallucinated. As a response to the materialist, consider this in William James' classic, The Varieties of Religious Experience: "Medical materialism finishes up Saint Paul by calling his vision on the road to Damascus a discharging lesion of the occipital cortex, he being an epileptic.
And medical materialism then thinks that the spiritual authority of all such personages is successfully undermined. Otherwise none of our thoughts and feelings, not even our scientific doctrines, not even our DIS-beliefs, could retain any value as revelations of the truth, for every one of them without exception flows from the state of its possessor's body at the time.
How can one not be inspired by the readings of someone how studied with Maharishi Mahesh Yogi? Susan Segal started the forms of meditation at the young age of seven, by inwardly repeating her name over and over; clearly developed spiritually beyond her years. Her spirituality developed on an up and down spiral for many years, until she was able to I have read this book time and time again, and the story never fails to inspire me to go beyond my limits of love, acceptance, transcendence and ego.
It has to stay eternally with you. This is perfect freedom. You have become moksha of the realized sages," read one letter she received. For years there had been no self at all, yet here on this road everything was myself, and I was driving through me to arrive where I already was. In essence, I was going nowhere because I was everywhere already.
The infinite emptiness I knew myself to be was now apparent as the infinite substance of everything I saw. Analysis[ edit ] Segal's story also received attention by many writers and publications. Collisions was reviewed by Yoga Journal magazine in , the reviewer writing, "This frank and engaging account is a fascinating view of the unfolding of a realization without a spiritual practice or intention.
You have always been That. And yes, there is a way that the Vastness Itself can perceive Itself so directly, without any fogging or shadowing or taking anything else to be who you are. I guess you could call it a waking up, but what seems most important to convey is that this is who everyone is all the time whether the direct awareness of it is there or not.
She says, "I started training groups for therapists because I want this to be conveyed to those who are in the business of trying to help end suffering". She wants people to see "things to be what they are" instead of pathologizing "a broad range of human experience". Segal went on to read up on depersonalization, derealization , and dissociation , finding some related to her experience but none were a perfect fit and they ultimately failed to capture the sensation of lacking a self in conjunction with normal, or even improved functioning.
Eventually, "a threshold was crossed and the identity, as that name, broke like a ship released suddenly from its mooring to float untethered on the ocean waves Vastness appeared There was no person to whom that name referred, no identity as that name. No one. But the compulsion to do the same thing once again always returned. Many people with DPD have cited similar early life incidents. They may involve repeating words until they lose their meaning, or looking intently in the mirror until an overwhelming sense of strangeness emerges.
Usually these episodes pass, are forgotten, and remain in the realm of youthful mind games. Segal's autobiography was completed in and she had begun giving presentations and leading weekly dialogues as well as a "training group" for therapists.
By late spring Segal began having even more intense experiences in which, "the vastness became even vaster to itself. By the end of the summer she was exhausted, and doctors encouraged her to rest. Around the same time, she noticed that the fear from years before had returned. Suzanne spent that fall at her home in Stinson Beach, California. During this period she recovered memories of childhood abuse.